I was born to a poor family in a hot summer in Indiana in '88. My birth was a rough one and the doctor said I should have been stillborn and that I would have a rough mental journey ahead me... He was right. I've battled mood swings ever since I can first remember. I was only about 3 when I almost stepped into a pond because I thought it would calm me...I would be at peace with myself. No one ever knew my battles.

I kept quiet because I thought people would laugh at me and my problems, and just say it was all in my head and that I was making it all up. Yeah, it is all in my head and that's where my battles are fought...some days are better than others but that doesn't mean I don't struggle. Having mental health problems creates physical problems. Like when I forget to eat or crave sugar etc I end up anemic. When my anxiety kicks in I end up with chest pains. When I'm going through depression I gain weight and have all sorts of gut issues I wish I could see the last of. When I'm spacing out too much I forget to do the basic stuff everyone else does and end up feeling like hiding away forever. When I don't know what to say I don't have real conversations with people for like days at a shot. I'm basically a hermit who lives in town.

But someday this is all gonna make sense, and I'm gonna start seeing the good of it all one day.

Have problems too? Speak up. You're not alone.

Hair's lighter and days getting longer, yay! I'm ready for summer! :-)

Thought I'd change the website as well, love my new title too. It's an idea in the making, stay tuned. There's lots of fun stuff coming! If you like writing, nautical gifts, making crafts, books, etc. You can follow my mini posts and fun stuff here:

Hey, happy Monday! <3

It's a new week and so:

• Rise and shine
• Put a smile on your face no matter what
• Every little bit of effort counts
• Let go and let God
• Believe and stop doubting
• Focus on the good

It's the little things in life that weighs us down the most, so let's start a new week off by emptying out the unwanted worries from last week.

I need to go on a diet but I love food too much lol. But what I don't love is constantly rotating between being dead tired and hyper, as in a constant cycle of 30 minute or so rounds... It gets frustrating!

I haven't been writing lately either. I'm not sure I've even typed anything for months.

On a good note, I've made my own shampoo with essential oils! It works really well and I've even used it as a body wash and facial wash. Good stuff. I like it. Ohh, and I've moved to a new place which I really love--it stays warmer and is closer to the sea!

As the photo says, "I am currently under construction...thank you for your patience". <3

Things I need to do:

* lose weight
* eat healthy
* start biking
* hike more
* write more
* prioritize 
* go to bed early

Things I need to stop:

* thinking I'm not good enough
* pigging out on junk food
* letting my emotions ruin my life
* being insecure about everything
* thinking I'm depressed but I really need a long nap because I'm just tired and grouchy
* not finishing things